The Sound before the Overture.

Mad excited for this outing to Space Farms tomorrow.

I have good vibes flowing for me right now, like i am at one with myself. It's pretty good stuff. I will playing video games or watching a movie and this cool wave of intense calm will just fall over me like a tsunami of love.

I lasts for maybe seconds but sometimes i get lost in it. Imagine a tornado and my life is a trailer park being tossed around with a simple ferocity. But no matter where that tornado goes there is always the center of it, the "eye" which is calm. As much as i enjoy being in the "eye" of the storm i am fond of being thrown around like a rag doll. Does that sound strange? I guess it would. The unknown scares me which is probably why i'm living a mediocre stable life. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, if the sun will rise or the ice caps will melt. I can't control those things but what i can control i have worked hard to set that in stone. I hate that part of me. Sometimes i wish i could just drop what i am doing and live off the land. No, not become a farmer but a type of adventurist making due with what i have.

Simple but precarious.

July twelfth is sneaking up like a soft whisper from a lonely bird. I can not wait for Japan. It's just a week but it's also just something i have to do. I expect everything from this trip. I want to find myself.