Living, always find out to late.

Wow. I'm just so depressed right now. Sucks.

Thanksgiving is the time of year i absolutely LOVE. Family and food. Two things i love the most. But my family just isn't the same as it used to be. I should have known that. My uncle recently passed away 05 / 07 / 2008. Basically he was the glue that was holding the tower of popsicle sticks together. The day he passed we came together but the day after the wake, things started to just get cloudy. My aunt Gin has been going through a very hard time. Most likely the hardest time in her life, the experience of having to undergo chemo therapy. Luckily my cousins and uncle who live with her always cheer her up and are always there for her. They have been pushing her to get better the whole time and without them i honestly think she wouldn't be with us anymore. But at some point in time my Mother and her exchanged words in which my Mother did not like. I don't know what because she will not say cause apparently i'm not good enough to talk to. Or what i really think is that it is just so childish that she can't muster the courage to tell me cause she knows how much of a shit fit i would give her for putting my aunt through even more pain. One night i remember my mom saying, "I don't know how much longer she has left honey." No joke i wanted to look at her and just scream in her face, "FUCK YOU!" She is so unbelievable. My aunt practically raised my Mother. This is my great aunt we are talking about here i should have mentioned that first but i forgot. They spent over fourty years together and when my mom should set aside her peaty differences and talk to my aunt again she decides to take the easy way out and be stubborn. Just staying utterly oblivious to the fact my aunt will soon be gone...