Conceptual love

One month from today.

February 23, 2009

This is going to be a very important day.



What is it like to stare into someones eyes looking for what is not there? It must feel like being trapped inside of a sealed tunnel, slowly it fills up with sand making it hard to walk or run. You think you can see some kind of light creeping out of the darkness but it takes a lot of trying to get there when your running waist deep in sand.

No one ever wants to feel that way. Trapped.



The feeling of love is so hard and blinding i can now see why people think they are in love and they really are not. Love is a trick played by the heart, mind, and body.

The easiest of those three is by far the body. We all know that feeling when you see someone that is good looking with a nice figure and physically love them. But we have grown to see this daily and often so it is easy to walk past them without a word and only a glance.

The second is the mind. The mind is not as easily beaten as the love of the body. Penetrating into the brain to the central love cortex is a powerful weapon. Liking the same things, talking about similar interests, and finishing one anothers sentences is a great. This is the time you start thinking love, dangerous and scary at first.

The third is the heart. The most foul. Worst love to get rid of, best love to be in. Their is no rules to this love. No words to arouse to the likeness. This is an untamed beast. Sure i can give you examples of what people have done but they don't mean anything really because no one in there right mind would copy those types of actions. This love is a creature in itself. A caged monster willing to kill for it's happiness. This is the hardest and as i have seen impossible to break. You wiill find yourself thinking in the middle of the day night morning about it, craving answers like lion craving meat.

I like to say that we all have the moral capacity to love in our own way. We do not.

People in this world are meant to be without love in the sad truth. People in this world are meant to suffer and be alone and be challenged and be humbled by change. People in this world are the median of life and death. To understand people is to understand the existance of creation.

("ohshitt" - you may have realized i didn't go to bed. I had a fone call kinda while i was sleeping but it was important. I see you signned off after we said goodbye but i want to thank you again for chatting you gave some good insight. I was going to give you props but i realized i don't even know your name yet. So tell me cause i am really interested, lol.)