To gangster for love.

How can something be timeless?

I just feel like with time everything i know will change no exceptions. It will change physically, emotionally, or mentally. Even diamonds. They may not change physically but i bet the how you look at them and feel about them will change over time.
Life has a really funny sense of humor. It maybe cruel, cynical, unforgiving but it has a sense of humor. You may have to look for it but it is definitely right in front of your eyes. At my job which is a supermarket they hire people left and right and maybe a week ago they hired a girl that i would not have expected to see working there in my entire life. Jennifer De Santo. It is hard to form the words to explain how she is, you may really have to just know her and what she has done in this life as a human being. It is going to be funny to see how it will turn out because unless i am forced to talk to her through some type of work activity i will be pretending that she does not exist and i am sure she will be doing the same thing. The other funny thing about this is, the reason i have a problem with her is because of what happened with my ex and i do not even talk to my ex any longer although i had to tell her about the infamous Jen now working at my place. We talked for a little while until her phone died and she suggested that we get together to catch up. The only reason because i did not talk to her anymore was because of the fact she would always have a reason that we could not hangout or could never find the time to hangout. When my uncle died and my second ex broke up with her and she was not there for me when i needed her so one day when i plans to hangout with her i asked her if we were stilll hanging out but she said gave a reason why not and told me that she was really getting pissed off at me. I did not talk to her after that for a good four months and now this girl is working with me. Life is just funny in a way by these circumstances.


So being a vegan is bitching hard and i give all those vegans courtesy for staying stong because vegan is no small task. I really think everyone should try to be vegan for a while just to see how hard it is.

I think i am not going to have sex or hook up with any girls until i find the girl i really want to marry. Since hook up is thrown around a lot i will explain futher: no oral, no handjobs or fingering. Dry humping is okay but that is it.

Don't ask me why i am doing these things...in honest i don't really know. I tell people it's because i want to be an all around better person...but it's not really that. I just feel like something is guiding me silently telling me to do this. Is that crazy sometimes i think it is.

It is so hard to be your own person in todays world. I want to thank all those who be themselves even in the face of peer pressure or any pressure. You all are my heroes and i hope one day all those people who are followers can be just like you.